Turning forty was perhaps one significant event. As good as my sex life was with Tom, I began to wonder if there was more to sex than I had experience.... And, then came Phuket! Tom and I went to Thailand for a long awaited holiday. Our first without the girls. For two weeks we simply enjoyed ourselves: good food, beach and lots of good sex! The last few days were spent in Phuket. One morning, feeling a bit stiff, I decided to try one of the local massages. Little did I know what was in store. I said that before, but it’s worth repeating. With everything that’s gone on, it’s hard for me to put myself out there. What happened with you and Billy hurt me for a long time and just when the clouds parted and I could feel the sun on my face, Sabrina was taken from me. It’s terrifying to think of trying again, Linda. Those two experiences were so horrible that I’m more comfortable with the thought of growing old alone than putting my trust in someone else or my faith in some magical happy. You’ll be first to try it. I’ve wanted to fuck you for years. If this thing works, after my dick gets better, we’ll try it without the pump, okay?’ She eagerly got the thing out of the box and carefully read the instructions. ‘It takes four AA batteries,’ she moaned. ‘And yes, I’d be happy to let you fuck me all the time if you want.’ ‘There are some double A’s in the desk,’ I informed her. She practically sprinted to the desk and got the batteries. ‘Take it easy Carol. Joan won’t be back for. Your worship for my COCK is not quite complete, your lesson not yet learned, your degradation to dirt not final until you do one more filthy act. Put on these white panties you pig and get on your knees facing away from me. My hand meets your ass in smack after smack…you know what I want yet you just can't figure it out can you? Your puny brain just isn't capable of understanding anything and I have to continue the pounding of your ass. Defile yourself you whore, pee your panties…let it.