Everything we did was supposed to be for their enjoyment alone, and I found it hugely rewarding to give them pleasure. But although they would have st...enuously denied it, some of the delicious depravities they initiated were really meant as a treat for me. In addition to all my other duties, it was my job to bathe and towel the ladies, and liberally smear body lotion, sun-block and insect repellent, as appropriate, onto their bodies. Jill, Ariadne and Xenia insisted on doing the same for me,. I used to search for unknowns females who are looking for male escort or males for having fun. One after searching a lot I found her and messaged her and we started chatting. As I am straight forward I directly came to point and asked her about her interest in sex and all. After 2-3 weeks regular chats we become good friends or u can say sex friends we use to talk about sex only. We had planned many stories how we fuck each other and help each other in masturbation. One day she messaged me that. It was sentencing day, but the clothes wouldn't make any difference. The fucking Judge already told my fucking lawyer that he was going to max me out. Stupid lawyer figured that if I wrote it all out, like I did, (see "Habit Forming", by maryjane), maybe we could get a deal for insanity. All it did was hang me; the State's Attorney tore me up on cross-examination. The jury barely left the box before they came back with a guilty verdict. The sentence itself was no surprise; the Judge had told. It looks like both of you are flying tonight. I told you he has no feelings for you, Ronnie. He's not even trying to get hard. And you, you gave better blowjobs when you were twelve."I realized at that moment that Carl was completely serious about killing me and about possibly killing Ronnie. I was reacting in stress before this, but now it settled in.There are several stages of grief and I blew through them in a matter of seconds. I probably skipped over some, but I was grieving for myself and.