.My favorite dream was The White Room. In it, I woke up in a room where thewalls and floor were all painted a solid, textureless white. It remindedme ...f my secret place, the place I could hide when my brain melted fromtrying to process too much pleasure at once. A place beyond reason,dignity, or morality. A place I didn't have to wonder why some of myproudest moments where when I was being humiliated. Where I didn't have toexplain to anyone...especially myself, why the word 'surrender' sounded. That evening in a town twenty miles away, I had seen where I could acquire my own car. There was an auction at the Sheriff's Department that would take place next Saturday.Rachel must have had British – Scottish or Irish ancestors, she had longish, flowing curly auburn hair, green eyes, freckles and a cute little upturned nose. Her face was heart-shaped, with a pointy chin, she I thought that she resembled Emma Watson, the movie star, quite a bit. She was a little shorter than me at about five. "We will require Lieutenant Lister to go with us, bringing the original order for us to assume command of the fort." I will go to Fort Henry with Sergeant O'Flannagain to see what furniture and other items can be obtained from the Quartermaster there for use at Mount Sterling and also at Gilmore's Station. Do you know what Captain Moore will require," Gwyn asked."No, but he will be moving his present equipment there. I will need to transfer him out there to look at the Station and see what. Even if it sells instantly, people usually need a couple of months before closing. I'll let you know."There was a silence."I know we're done," she said suddenly. "I have spent a long time thinking about this, as you can probably imagine. I thought--in addition to asking myself why I was such a fool, I mean--I thought about how I would feel if the situation was reversed, if you'd been having an affair behind my back."And I couldn't even begin to imagine taking you back, under any circumstances..