It's driving me totally crazy." I'm so sorry William. I never meant to hurt you, but I became so frustrated and felt so old and useless that I did a v...ry stupid thing. The affair wasn't about love, just the sex and excitement of being wanted. Yes, we danced and made out and had sex. It was a way to relieve my sexual frustrations and make me feel attractive and wanted again. I am so very very sorry to have hurt you. Please let's get past this. We have many good years left to enjoy our family and. ” Allison got to her feet. Lionel looked startled and worried, rekindling Allison’s sense of control over the situation. As she passed him in the doorway she grabbed him by the ear as a teacher might an errant schoolboy. “Come along,” she said crisply, pulling him along behind her, “let’s look at your work.”Allison wasn’t confident of finding fault with anything Lionel had done. He’d proven to be both attentive and effective when it came to domestic tasks. In fact he was far more assiduous than. Sounded like he said "always burning shit". She giggled and walked over to him quietly. Somehow seeing him there cooking for both of them quieted the panic of being late.She snuck up behind him and wrapped her arms around his waist. She felt him stiffen for a second but he soon relaxed and she let her fingers run up to his chest. She moved her face to the back of his neck and placed a few soft kisses there trying to gauge his reaction to her touch. Part of her had worried that he would regret. Jake West and your pa was both chasin' after me and like a fool I chose your pa. He looked so exciting in those days. People walked soft around Claude Skye." She sighed and added, "They still do." Then I found out exciting don't put beans on the table. The other mines played out and Jakey married that whiny Karen Beasley and we both found out we made bad mistakes."Reba did not listen to her mother's lament. "Ma, I decided I am going to get out of here. I got a ride Monday with Mister West. Why.