"You liked my philosophical bull?" Frank asked, finding that hard to believe."No, silly," Tanya laughed. "I liked the way you treated Béla. She did s...mething that you thought was terribly wrong, yet you forgave her. I love the way you love her. I was hoping that maybe someday, you could love me like that." There's nothing you could do to make me not love you," Frank whispered."Um, good," Tanya sighed and lay back with her arms over her head, pointing her busty boobs right at his face."Nice,". . that it wasn’t bothering me why dad was scolding me but her turning her face away from me hurt me more..!!I lowered my face again and this time I was really feeling terrible..!!Then dad said.. “I think even I should have sent you for KOTA as well.. like Sharma ji did.. atleast I wouldn’t have to see you with me eyes spoiling your life..”I heard a gasp…!! It was from the person I was praying it to be..I raised my head with gleaming eyes , knowing that she still loves me..!!Our eyes met.. I. Not tonight. I felt so lost. Whyhave I done this to myself?Why haven't I taken any of the chances I was given? How much can youhate yourself?I needed more alcohol. Maybe, when the pain lessens, if ever, I cansee more clearly. I should have told my parents. Screw that stupidnote my father made. For fuck's sake, I'm their child. They would havehelped me. Now it's too late. I'm 31. I had such a small amount offacial hair until my mid-20s. Now I have to deal with so muchtestosterone damage. I need. She picked up my glass of moonshine, and took a sip, then coughed.“And fawh gods sweet sakes, I know it ain’t yuh family’s ting, but sometimes go out and enjoy some bettuh hooch den dis rotgut,” she laughed, “A 20-year-old single malt, or at least a 12-year-old. Okay? And a good bottle of wine, not dat concawhd stuff. Yuh got me so fahr? I taughtcha how tuh live a little, so live a little, fawh me. Okay? I love yuh, Johnny. Yuh with me?”“Always with you, Rachel,” I said looking at the fire,.