”Jack grimaced but nodded. He stayed up the rest of the night thinking about what might occur when he met the Order. The next morning, Sharley found...him still sitting in his chair, staring into space. “Lord, have you been here all night?”He smiled at her. There was no reason to worry his concubine. “I was just thinking,” he answered.“Lord, allow me to help you.” Sharley untied the ribbon holding her nightgown together.“Lord, worry does not help. Allow your concubine to pleasure you.”Jack smiled. " he said "So get naked, and on your knees."I waited for him to open the door and step aside so I could get in.But he didn't move. He just looked at me like I was stupid. Then I realized what he wanted. My shaking hands went to take off my shirt, then off with my pants and underpants. They got tangled in my shoes. I took off my shoes, socks, everything, and stood there naked. He pointed down.I went down to my knees. We were around on a side porch but I felt like I was naked and on my knees in. And I do mean any time. Heck, even I got laid last night. Just being around the two of you got my old lady fired up. I haven’t had sex that good in the last two years!” “What do you mean?” I said. “We didn’t do anything last night. We weren’t even sitting beside each other.” “Oh please!” he said. “Every time she looked at you last night even an old guy like me could see the love in her eyes. She wanted to get you back to the bedroom, of that I am certain. And you, you are so much in love with. But there was really no "if" in my thinking. Somehow the ideaof abandoning my journey into womanhood just seemed to have beendiscarded without any logical assessment.The booklet was on the dresser - "Sex Affirmation Surgery - A Guide forTranswomen." Was that what I was? A transwoman? To find out, I wouldneed to read it.It all seemed very complicated. There were complicated assessments anda very long transition process set out in the book. But the chapter on"Surgery" included what appeared.