Feeling her cut on the curves with my hands was another high. I have a fetish for stomach area and I enjoy feeling the flab in around the stomach/ nav...l/ waist. I was on cloud nine.But little did I realize that we had reached the destination. We got down, she paid and reluctantly started walking ahead. As I was paying my money disappointed in having ended it all, she turned back to smile at me. That was all I needed. I left the remaining money with the rickshawalla and ran towards her. I was. Smoking is bad. That is the message I had gotten all my life. I neversmoked. Never. My mom would kill me if I did.Yet, as I watched Ruth smoke, the grey plumes swirling past her salt-and-pepper hair, I knew that I had always been fascinated by women whosmoked. Specifically, women who smoked cigars.Was it Shirley MacLaine in Two Mules for Sister Sara or was it NatalieWood and Vivian Vance in The Great Race who turned me on to women whosmoke cigars?Whatever the cause, I always got excited. .. right now. Where do you want to be... say... a month from now?" What do I want most? Right now? I'd like you to move in with me, Jill. I want to be with you every day. I want to sleep with you every night." I think I'd like to move in, Allie. But... I don't think I can move in with you right now." Why not, Jill? I mean, we're in love, aren't we?" Can I show you why?" Yes, of course you can." OK. Come with me."Getting up off the couch, Jill takes Allie's hand and takes her into the kitchen.. "What did he say?" She was shivering but she couldn't help it. Every time she heard about John she felt the old fear numbing her soul. A therapist would say that she had some unsolved issues. Being afraid of John after all these years was not natural."He said that he is dying and that he wants to see you. He said..." Mitch stopped abruptly as if he had second thoughts. "Well, he claimed that he wants to apologize".James was trying to persuade Georgia for two days to speak to him. He knew that.