I don't know, I guess ... I guess it's because I know you feel differently about me ... different than I feel about you, I mean." I see. Maybe we shou...d talk about this before the divorce is final. How DO you feel about me?"Bret really didn't want to get into it. He was embarrassed. He didn't want to admit he still loved her, especially since he knew she didn't love him back anymore."Come on, Terry, I came over to talk about the car, let's stick with that."Shit, she cursed to herself, he can be. Although this pre-Christmas Lake Tahoe excursion had originally been Adrienne’s idea, and she’d even gone so far as to book and pay for the rental house itself, she and Sasha weren’t coming. Too many emotions, too many complications, and with everything going on in our relationships, it was easier for them to bow out and take an impromptu vacation somewhere else alone. In fact, the two of them had flown out to Hawaii yesterday, swapping snow and ice for sandy beaches. Even more depressing was. I ignored her and everything else, just wanting this to be done with. I knew what it was, why I was being so moody all of a sudden. New York did that to me, even if it was just a two hour layover. Like I was going back to my unfinished life. At least the flight attendant was leaving us finally, greeting someone else she'd waited with perhaps, but probably not."Here." Sofia opened some pills, giving me a couple Valium because I was being so mean to everyone. She pressed them into my hand and. Even at home, I was expected to be in charge. I have two sisters, Sylvia who is 5 years younger than me and Megan who is 4 years younger than her and all I heard was how I was supposed to look out for them, care for them, and protect them. When I was 13, my parents started making me babysit the two of them after school and sometimes on the weekends. As usual, I was supposed to be in charge. I was supposed to be the responsible one.I went through high school with straight A's and my High School.