I disappointed you. I failed. I-The figure turns and starts to leave, then stops and steels himself. Slowly he returns.Damn, I told myself that I coul... do this. I just. I just miss you so much Andy. I know what the doctors say. But I can't help but think that if I had made you go to the doctors sooner. If I had insisted on the tests sooner, that maybe we could have caught this.The wind blows again; the cold bite of the changing season threatens to chill him.You would think that now, with all. The thought of being touched by another woman had me going crazy. "Damn" I cursed myself, if anything was going to happen, that would've been the time. Damn I blew it! I had made up my mind right there in the sauna that I wanted her and I had to figure out if she felt the same. Even if she did, I wouldn't have enough nerve to make the first move. Damn! I was hopeless I thought! We got to our room and we both had to go pee. We started kidding around as . If I was you, Laila, I'd rise to the occasion and do your best to provide Julia with what she wants."Laila moaned, "But I don't know how! I know what we did wrong, and I agree with Julia that I was only thinking about my friends. I could EASILY write an email describing how wrong I was for doing that, but I can't think why I'd win Best Liaison of the Week." Don't ask me. Literally, as Julia told you not to. My advice is for you to decide whether or not you want to try. If you want to give up,. Spiritually she was blooming like a flower. It was beautiful to watch. There was also a playful side to Joyce. She was fun to be around. She thought we were fun to be around. We continued to hug. She liked the idea that Ann and I were often nude upstairs. At one point she asked: ‘Since I’m the upstairs maid. Should I get a ‘French maid’ costume?’ I told her only if she was on the pill. We both laughed. One morning she asked me if I wanted her to pose. I said sure. I took some truly beautiful.