To say I was stunned would be the biggest understatement of my life! I sat back at the table and tried to come to grips with what the heck had just ha...pened. I had to admit, he was correct in some respects. Being a nurse, I never let him have the sugary treats that were the staples of his friend's diets. And of course, we were never wealthy, living in a fancier town than we really could afford, so we went without in other ways. I never dressed Kyle like a pauper, but he was not exactly the. ..I stopped going to see Mike shortly after the time I saw him that I wrote about on page 5. I can't remember exactly why I stopped going to see him. I know that I almost always had girlfriends, between them and starting a career, it was hard to get away. I do know that I was not the only guy he was, "massaging." That was a turn off for sure.It would be years until my next experience. I was older now, 30ish I think. I was by now mostly just living out fantasies by watching porn. I found that I. Gae or maine us se kaha keh is main to khatra ho sakta hai woh boli kesa khatra maine kaha keh woh kat lega ya phir pregnancy ki problem ho gae to us ne kaha keh nahin aisa kuch nahin hoga maine try kit hi woh katega nahin aur rahi bat pregnancy ki to us ke liye mere pass tablets hain main itni hot ho chuki thi keh lun lene ke liye kuch bhi ker sakti thi us ne mujhe thorra force kia to maine han ker di to woh apne dog ko le ker agae aur movie main jese ho raha tha bilkul wese hi kerne lagi us. The next day Paul's apartment was empty. I was unsurprised that he hadn't bothered to say goodbye. In all honesty I was pleased he had gone. I had no interest in him now, I had used him up, discarded him, no matter what he thought. The rest of the holiday passed uneventfully, only I had changed. I was twenty years old, but I had already been three different people.Jo the slut was born. Call it overcompensation, say something in my mind had broken, think what you will. I don't care about anyone.