I heard Nikki moan softly as both she and I fantasised abouthow the dildo would feel as it maddened our clits. And for a second, Iimagined reaching ar...und to grasp a hard, hot cock in lace."Head down, bitch, I want to see that pretty arse of yours," said Becky,and the femmed boy was quick to comply. His face lay on the bed lookingat the camera, and again that feeling of familiarity stole over me."Mmmm, what a lovely arse you have," said Becky, "Push it right up forme to fuck."The boy obeyed,. I have come to want it very much, and yet I'm so nervous and afraid. These are my feelings -- my mixed emotions -- both for her, and about finally going 'all the way' with her:I thought of you today after the lovely lunch we sharedThe way you looked, and all the things you saidWhen you urged me yet again to take our friendship all the wayAnd share the scintillating splendor of two women together in bed.We've been friends for so long, and yet I never knewThis side of you, that you've finally let. Sheseemed to be so grounded and capable of finding her own interests and notdepending on my attention all the time. I really appreciate that becauseit gives me plenty of time to focus on my own interests and I kind offeel obligated to return the favor, so I don't push her too much on hermonomania.My relationships seem to generally devolve into being viewed as a pooractivity-planner by my partner... failing to find enough activities andthings to do/parties to attend to satisfy 'her.' This was. I push forward this time pushing back to meet it and feel it slide in, there is no time to be gentle I push with all my force and feel the plug pop into place all the way to the hilt. A scream rips from my throat and I am sure I must have torn something. After a moment the contracting slows and I can again only feel the intense internal pressure so full I could burst. I have set a goal for myself of 10 minutes. I turn over and slowly sit down testing my weight as I go, until I am settled.