I told her of admiring all of the feminine things I was now wearingand how they all made me feel. I said that if this is what it's like, Ireally like ...eing a girl even if it is still only pretend. I told herthat since we had nearly two weeks, I wanted to try on every piece ofgirl's clothes she had collected for me. I told her I wanted to learnhow to act like a girl. I told her that I wanted to be a girl for asmuch of the next two weeks as possible.While I was bearing my soul, I hadn't noticed. Stay out of this and keep your head low.”Well, at least I learned that he cared about me. I did what he asked and when the summer came the situation seemed to have calmed down inside the Library. By the end of the summer or latest a month or two after the studies started again in the autumn, I would have finished cataloging the books I wanted to loot from the Library - including the plays Hanna had talked about. My status among the workers had also risen so that I had my own room in the Dark. Although I couldn’t see her body, I still admired her in every way possible. I mean in after thought what 20 year old wouldn’t? I was beaming and didn’t even realize it. In truth, I knew I could have done what we’d done all night long. Yes, I was truly happy about it all, as the smile on my face showed that I was too, and as I continued to fumble with my shirt. I couldn’t get it on but that’s only due to I was still looking at her as she looked up at me as we both shared our smiles. Regardless,. She gets it and is turning to leave when her attention is caught by a container next to the computer which is labeled ‘Subject Z.’She now knows that is who she is in his studies, and her curiosity gets the better of her.She opens the container to find many DVDs inside. She lifts the first and sees it is labeled, “Subject Z first visit: Pearl One: May 4th.” What is this? Emma lifts one after the other and sees each are labeled with notes of which pearl it was or other notations from other.