I hadnt noticed it before, but when I did, I looked down at it. It was huge. All the memories from the night before came back. I thought about how Joh... felt inside me and wondered how something that much bigger would feel. I told myself I couldnt think that way. Someone is awake. Im sorry. I just have a hot ass sister. He moved away from me and went towards his pants. A different kind of panick overtook me. I didnt want him to get dressed. I couldnt believe that I was thinking that, but it was. Around noon on Saturday of a fine summer day I went in my truck to go pick her up. It's a few miles drive to her house and as I drove the sweet summer air smelled amazing. I hadn't blown my load in at least a month and so I was dripping with testosterone. As I drive up my girl friend comes out the door. Her tits slightly bouncing as she walked down the stairs. They're 38C's so pretty big, but not huge. As she slides into the truck I give her a huge kiss. Slowly I back down the driveway,. .. again.”Josh spoke up “I don’t know if I should admit this but I think ... I would like to feel that ... for real.” They couldn’t see the blush on Josh’s face as he revealed that bit of information to the others.“Josh, I have to agree now that you have so bravely admitted it too. I don’t think I am gay but that feeling? Wow it was intense. So, are you guys saying that we should maybe ... do it ... to each other?”“Hey, what if we were to have a ... sleep over at my house? Mom and Joann go to. I continued to work hard on communicating better with Amy and appreciating just how great a woman she is. Things began to return to how they had been but with this major difference in my perspective. I will always love Amy and never take her for granted again. I began to understand that it takes guts to fall in love, but it takes nerve to back to the one who broke you. And Amy had done that for me.A few days later after a long day at my new job--yes, I found one--we met for dinner and drove.