?I?m very fortunate that Carin recognizes the times when I need to think about what I?m facing and is able to allow me to do so by not trying to engag... me in needless conversation. This is one of those times as I think of what I saw in the x-rays? everything so far has been more external, my developing breasts and the changes between my legs, but this? the internal changes I saw? have had the greatest impact of all on my psyche. There?s no longer any doubt about it, I am becoming a girl. Considering my proclivities, I should have paid more attention, I realized. I typed in the first address and sat back.It was my 12" long dildo. It was suction-cupped to a kitchen floor—I assumed it was a kitchen as the floor was linoleum and I could see the bottom of what looked like the dishwasher on one side, and the stove on the other. Some cabinets, and a discarded black t-shirt? Anyway, the camera was on the floor and the video was titled "Ramming my gay ass on a huge anal dildo." I. 'Very nice. Did that make your son hard?'"He wants to know if you got a hard-on?" No!" Jesse insisted a little too strongly and moved his arm across his lap."Yes, I think looking at his hot mommy gave him a nice big chubby." Mom, shut up," he whispered angrily.'Ask him to take it out and show it to you.'"He wants you to take it out," I relayed to Jesse."I'm not letting this guy look at my dick. No fucking way."'I want to see your mother looking at your dick. 50 tokens.'I hit mute. "Jesse, 50. When I returned home I went to Audrey's bungalow and she commented on my sunburnt face. She said that the weather on the campsite must have been very good. I told her it was and I was brown all over because Id been on a nudist beach. At that she asked me if I would show it to her. "Id have to be naked to do that, Audrey, and perhaps I shouldnt undress for you to see me because you are my sister". "For goodness sake, Peter, I know what a naked man looks like so go ahead and do it". "Ill do it.