It's up to Sam to find my fuck hole unaided. I haven't been fucked by a man in a long time so I know it's going to hurt when he enters me, especially ...ince no one has offered any lube.Perversely, I look forward to the pain. I think the more it hurts me, the more friction there is, the better it will feel to Sam. Humiliation, submission, degradation and exhibitionism are the things that rock my boat. If any man takes pleasure in my pain, I'm certainly not going to deny him.I feel the big head of. I wondered how many white tourists he had fucked. With a throbbing head I went over and nodded at him.‘Hey there man’ he said with his usual smile.‘How you doing?’ I grinned nervously.‘Good. That your lady?’. His directness threw me off balance for a moment. Guessing that he would never be so forward with regular guests I reasoned that he did indeed recall me from the other day. I nodded and felt my throat go dry. ‘Lucky man. Real lucky. She fine’. His English was good, if a little broken.. I turned around and said hi. I lighted my cig.Niki- I also want a smoke. Can I join you?Me- yeah why not, plz feel free.Niki- so again drunk today?Me- yeah kinda. But I’m ok.Niki- do you realize that you have become alcoholic?Me- yeah, but that’s become a way of life now, can’t help much.Niki- oh shut up! There’s so much in life to look ahead to. So much to move on. You are a sweet guy. You don’t deserve this self-destruction mode.I was like yeah ok. We finished our smokes and left. That night. During this time I got to know her extremely well, and she was something I had never imagined. Usually the pretty ones are always bitchy, have some mega rich older man supplying their need for overpriced jewellery and fancy cars, or just generally horrible people. She wasn’t like that at all. She lived with her mum to help her pay the bills while she was on long term sick with glandular fever, her biggest love was the gym and her pet puppy, and she just didn’t have a bad word to say about.