I needed to touch him and hold him. Opening my eyes, I could see longing in his face. I could relate to this face. I saw masculine characteristics whi...h formed part of my own identity. I said to him, “For the first time I am not playing a gender role or following stereotyped rules." Bob smiled as I went on to say, “I want a sexual experience with you where I see me from someone else's perspective if that makes sense?” “This is a strange situation,” he replied. “How about we dry each other off. The Handsome young decided to go and see if this beautiful lady would mind if he joined her. She said ' Sure you can join me.' As she looked at the fine figure of a man who stood there. They started to chat and find out what type of day each other had had, the drinks flowed slowly the conversation got more enjoyable, he asked her what she was doing so far from home and how she was going to get there as it was now quite late, she had no idea of the time till just then as the hrs had flown by. . Doesn't that, like, bother you? I said that last partas much to convince myself as her."No," she said without any hesitation. "I love our hair and I totallylove how our outfits match."Honestly, that's exactly how I felt, but I knew that I shouldn't. "Don'tyou see how wrong this is? It's the magic or whatever. The real us wouldnever have been caught dead looking this cute."She kept fingering the necklace as she said, "Who is the real us anyway?" Big super cool boys of at least thirteen, maybe. I asked him what he was looking at and he said, "Oh nothing, I was just trying to picture you with long hair and cock sucker lips." I splashed some water at him and told him to stop it because I wasn't that kind of girl.As we relaxed in the hot water, Kevin kept bringing the conversation back to me being a girl. In the beginning I was just joking around with him, telling him that I was out of his league, or that I didn't have the right curves for that kind of life, but after a while I began to.