"I would like to be clear about what I want. I don't plan to compete in any tournaments, or anything like that. I just want to know how best to use th...s cane as a defensive weapon." I stated yet again."Understand, I will not make you bow to the east or make funny noises," she said smiling. When she smiled, I was able to judge her age a little better. She was more youthful than I had thought. Her age did not matter or whether her belt color matched her Gi. All I wanted to do was prevent some. I began thinking about tomorrow. I was behaving like a little kid; anxious for Christmas to come early. For me, tomorrow was going to be Christmas and I was too excited to fall asleep. If Rhoda was anticipating her massage from Pete tomorrow, and she always had trouble falling asleep the night before just from knowing what was going to happen, imagine what I was feeling. My imagination and anxiety kept me awake long after midnight; more like after 2. By then everyone in the house was asleep. I. "So, what did you thinkof the spanking?" He asked me."I liked it. It really turned me on. It's not something I'd want to do allthe time, but it did it for me earlier. When I was sucking you and Dan wasfucking me, I loved that. I knew that I was being fucked by two strongguys, they were holding on to me, fucking me, using me the way they wantedand there was nothing I could do about it. I was helpless, and I lovedit." I thought so. So, if I was to tie you up and gag you, then fuck yousenseless,. . Tomorrow I will discuss this at therapy with my attractive female ther****t .. I wonder if she will have her hair down.... Sometimes she wears a outfit where the session is just I'm over stimulated ... I wish there was a casual place I could go too but all the places I think of are just not my thing it's not casual it's overkill.... Maybe I should go into business and explain what we really want and don't want... Here is a example of not want ....." Centerfolds " As usual didn't resolve it.