Without my iPad, phone, or laptop, I couldn't surf the news, play solitaire, or engage in anything to pass the time. I leaned way back in the desk cha...r an let my mind wander for a change.It was interesting.The less I 'thought, ' the more thoughts came to me.Scenes from my lives entertained me for quite some time. Several of those scenes brought tears to my eyes, and others made me giddy with laughter. In my head, I spent time with Jennifer. She was as I discovered her on the dock in Astor that. “Natasha, we find you very attractive.” She looked at my eyes, they were hungry. “May I take your name tag off, I would like to ask you a question that I can’t ask with your tag on.”She blushed and nodded. She didn’t utter a sound, just nodded. I opened her jacket and unfastened the tag, then removing it. I closed it and put my hands onto her hips and slipped the tag into her skirt pocket. She looked at me, glanced at Anthony, and returned to me, not quite fully, more from the tops of her. "Hang on, there's more to come. Move your legs a little closer together please, Carol."When she'd done so, I pulled her panties down to her ankles. "Lift one foot please ... Now the other. Thank you."Her panties were now on the floor in front of her feet. I floated them up toward my nose, intending to sniff them and make some complimentary comment. It didn't quite work out that way though. Panties floating through the air was just too bizarre.Julia shrieked and grabbed my arm even tighter. No. "He said it was ok, but that was just him trying to be nice. I knew it wasn't ok. You don't live with a man for 23 years and not know how he feels."But even though I felt bad about it, I was only saying what was the truth about how I felt, so I figured he'd get over it."Before we went to sleep, he said something so softly I could hardly hear him. He said he wouldn't try that way any more. He said he didn't want to make me unhappy because of his limitations. He said he loved me too much to want.