Raincheck, Gina says. She's so cool. She just says Raincheck. Then she leans over and whispers in my ear, Let 'em keep their socks on, doll, it'll rea...ly make them know. I nod okay even though I don't even know. Then she says, Oh, yeah, and don't let them cream too soon. I sort of get what she means. Sort of. Maybe not. But the way she just whispers these things to me makes me feel I'm a genuine woman too. Like it doesn't matter how old you are. If you can do this stuff to boys you're up there. “yeah something like that, that weed was really good it got me so baked” I said running my hand through my hair and now relaxing slightly in the moment. “well since you liked it so much and since you’re finished all those chores you want to smoke another one? I don’t have anywhere to be right now and wouldn’t mind at all, this looks like a sweet little spot you got back here” he started walking past me in to the yard looking around and nodding.“s…sure thing, you want a glass of water or. “Well I’m hot and who going to see me except you? If you’re that hot take your shorts, you were the one who wanted to go windsurfing in the nude!. Go on I dare you get naked and stay that way, and take these boards outside will you, and put the chairs out”“You getting frisky, or you just want me to be seen nude? Maybe you should lose the thong and join me” I slipped off my shorts and chucked them at Jayne, who stood smiling, then turned away from me parted her legs slightly and slowly pulled. I had those same questions you have when I was twelve and there is no way I'd ever tell your sister. Your mother, maybe, but not Judi. I hear she likes to spread the news. I don't want you to spoil that good reputation you must have. I'll leave that for you."Ben walked over and hugged me again. "You've been here twenty minutes and I feel like you're my father more than I ever felt that way with my Dad. Thank you for reappearing in Mom's life again."This was too much. I began to think of Ben as.