Sleep came quickly after that. When I woke up, the TV was still on, and I was still on my own. My watch said it was coming up to midnight.I made mysel... a coffee, and just as the kettle came to the boil, Mike appeared. "All finished," he said, handing me two DVDs."Thank you," I said, and I went to put them away in my handbag."Don't you want to see how good you were Jill?" Mike asked, smiling wickedly at me.He put on the one of me doing my striptease. It was very professionally filmed and edited.. Here's what I did do, just try to understand.As I sat there at his desk looking at the email, all I wanted was to witness their first lovemaking, I wanted to watch. I wanted to watch them more than anything. But how?A peephole in the wall? No, hard to do, hard to fix after. Hide in the closet? No way.After I had read that email, I simply could't get the image out of my mind. My naked son, on his knees between Melissa's legs, guiding himself into her for the first time. Yes, and then going like. Crystal and I raced upstairs to our room after our part of the Telethon ended to pick up our gear for the 'Kenesis Mission.' Officially, we were tired after a full day and needed to get to sleep. If anyone got asked, we headed off to bed. I texted Craig, and he replied, 'Mission on. Nighty night.' Kenesis had gone to bed. Craig knew we'd be on our way after hearing that news.We slipped out of the hotel and walked to the Day's Inn. We strolled down the sidewalk carrying our bags and trying to. She always took her time to find out about a man, before letting them come near her. "Oh-my-god, you went after Douglas as if you have not been fucked in ages. Oh-god what did he think of her now?" "I bet he is thinking wow-oh-boy is she easy! How, could such well thought out plans, go amuck?She let the tears flow. "How, can I be so selfish? I have ruined everything!" She fell asleep nested within his strong arms.When she awoke, he was holding her close. "Well hello doll, did you sleep well?".