The cat had shown up several months after the death of her husband and, if truth be told, some days was all that kept her going. She had tried to get ...t to come into the house, but he was feral and would not stay inside the building for any length of time. His fear of being inside had not stopped him from taking over the front porch, however. Mary had finally lured him into sleeping on the porch in a large wood box that she had lined with an old comforter and on the warm summer nights he had. No where to go, all my friends were busy. I decided to go to a new bar I'd heard of. I entered the bar, it seemed nice, a few nice looking women and a couple of homely ones. I sat down and ordered a drink. The bartender said the show would start i 15 minutes. I sat back and ordered another drink. As I sipped my drink the show started. A nice woman came on stage,she looked like Reba. She started singing. I had to pee and went to the rest room. I went into the stall pulled down my shorts. I. The idea was to record her and jerk off to it later, but with all the trembling and excitement I just couldn't contain. I started watching her still waiting for the water to heat, listening to the music and slightly dancing to it, as I thought and realized that even I was still nervous, the questions I first asked changed from “what if she discovers it?”, “will I get in a big problem?” to the thoughts “your body is mine forever and you will never know” “maybe you do know and like showing to me,. I just can't get enough of it; so much so that it's like a d**g. If I don't get a regular fix, I'm sure I would fall apart. Of course I struggle because of my looks and body shape so I have to go to great lengths to satisfy my urges.I was always an awkward, stocky k** when younger and found it hard to find a girl to go out with me. I had the odd date or two but generally girls gave me a wide berth. The upshot was that after leaving school and going to university, instead of going to mad parties.