I just broke down. Heaving racking sobs like I’ve never experienced before. Damned if that little girl didn’t climb over the console into my lap a...d just held me and told me to cry. “Cry, Charlie, cry. Let it all out. It’s time to let go. Let me have it all. Just cry for me. When you feel better think of your love for them and cry again. I’m right here. I’m here for you darling boy, just cry.” And I did lay my head on her shoulder and cried. Hard.We sat there for 20 minutes, at least, until I. I then went to my draw that was filled with all of my vibrating toys. I even had a few new toys that were given to me as gifts and was eager to try them out. It was almost like Christmas day for me. I had a new glass vibrator that I was wanting to try out. I warmed it in hot water and got it nice and hot. I did notice that it was a vibrating toy, but did not have the proper batteries to test that portion out. I of course grabbed my wand and my mirror and the new glass vibrator. I set myself up. "Thank you Mrs Smythe. What time do I need to be ready for?" Please call me Diana. We usually light the fires around 5 O'clock, andthe food is served around 7. It is really an informal event."She smiled, and gently closed the door behind her as she left the room.Alone again with his thoughts Sam tried the picture a more serene time,his teenage years, his errant coming of age party, and his first love,Ryan. Now there was a boy who could melt anyone's heart. Ryan hadcaptured Sam's heart on a. The Chalmers were everything that he aspired to. Money, social position, business standing. To him, we represented everything he someday hoped to earn by a lifetime of hard effort." Did you ever think that he might have just liked you, for yourself?" No. I liked him though, and he knew that. As soon as I saw him, I knew he was special. He burned with ambition. He took up playing golf just because I played it all the time. He didn't have the money for lessons, not at first, but he started.