Now little things send me spiraling into tears under his scrutiny, knowing how disappointed he must be to see how I have retracted while he was gone. ...y timing is off … my responses not instantaneous. I used to be able to read his mind and know what he was thinking without question. Now I find myself stumbling for words and quick responses to his questions. I doubt my answers, hoping they are what he is looking for when I used to just know. Just last night he said, “You’re too emotional, relax. After Erika, his third child, Wayne planned to raise one more child and retire. I don't know whether Wayne's death was good or bad. On one hand he made girls better off financially when they grew up. On the other hand, that came at the cost of great pain and suffering during their youth.My mom and dad were able to take time from their busy schedules to attend my funeral. Watching my funeral from above, I saw schoolfriends, teachers, many strangers, my brother Sherwin, Fiona, and even Jesse. My. .. ABSOLUTELY NOT!! They were trying to think of something else naughty that I would agree on when some other girl at the party suggested that if I wouldnt have sex with them, then I had to take off my shirt and watch them jerk off. I was a little appauled by that but remember I WAS SURE I WAS RIGHT!! I was being silly and playful so I agreed... BUT I WAS SO SURE I WAS GOING TO WIN THE BET I DIDN'T REALLY THINK I WOULD HAVE TO DO ANYTHING AT ALL!!! Long story short... I lost...lol. Even though. The Ninety Nine depression." [Author's Note: I should probably change it to the '09 depression!] Ben interrupted, trying to get a move on with things. "What has that go to do with all of us?"She gave him a patient look. "Well, as you may also know, in an effort to preserve the value of their national dollar, the United States instituted a series of very stiff trade tariffs on all imports and exports." The subject matter was dull enough to dry paint, but whether it was the way she said it in her.