" So don't break any more rules," Evan admonished. "And maintainsatisfactory rankings in all the other areas. If you do that, youshould be at positi...e merits in a couple weeks." A couple weeks!" I replied anxiously. "I've got to get privileges now.I mean--I was safe walking along the tracks. Brandon wasn't looking forme there. But now I can't take that route anymore. I have to walk thesidewalks, and every afternoon is going to be a game of Russianroulette. I'll never know if I'm about to. When it was just the first man raping me, I tried to avoid him, and sometimes I could do it for weeks at a time, making sure we were never alone together. But eventually he figured out ways, and it seemed there was never a day that I wasn’t at his mercy. Assaulted is the best word to use for those first few months. I was hit, pinned to the wall or floor, and choked, all to get me to be compliant and let what was inevitably going to happen, happen. Ultimately I gave in. I was vulnerable,. When I went back to Francine at eleven, she took me to Marsha who said, "You're lucky, Chuck. You only have to work with me for an hour before I go to lunch. I suppose Ms. White will take you for another interview and get you back on time."I said, "She doesn't go till almost one."Marsha said, "She is the smart one around here.Ms. White and I did go to lunch together again. She asked me about my military career and commented that her husband had wanted to be career air force, but his football. Ed then left for the bathroom again. as he left she said he was kissing her and reached into the hole and softly felt her breast. She said i jumped only cause I wasnt used to that, and he was pulling his hand out and I stopped him. then he looked into her eyes and felt her nipples and tweaked it. She said I was so turned on then I would have let him fuck me there If I was sure you wouldnt be mad. I laughed and said did he do anything else. She said yes. He put his hand on my thigh and slid it.