My single friends fell into the swamp of relationship. Ever since then, all they did was chat with their respective girlfriends. They would exchange t...eir intimate pleasantries via a phone call, video call, text message, face-to-face meeting, etc. During their conversation, I was sidetracked because I was not one of them.During such times, I could only let out my frustration by masturbating multiple times looking at women being fucked hard in pornographic videos. I soon realised that. " This gave me an opportunity to broach my ideas for carrying out his assignment. I advised him to video all transgressions of our tariffs but not to interfere with vessels entering the gulf since we wanted any vessel apprehended to be fully loaded with petroleum products. But those that were outbound and had not paid tariff were to be stopped with all force necessary at his disposal. I suggested that he recommend to the Captain that we may have business for his ocean going tugs if they were. I didn't want her to feel I was crowding her again and besides, I knew Mom had some sort of plan.I was sitting on the edge of a brick planter wall, sipping on a beer when Dana sidled up to me."You've been avoiding me," she said right out of the blue.She did it again. Caught me with something I was not expecting."No ... no ... not really. Just giving you some space." At least I didn't sound like an idiot."Your mother isn't shy, is she?" she smiled."No ... Mom's never been accused of that," I. If she was so quick to betray their treasured relationship out of pride how could she blame it on the fear of pain?No -- she could never quite regain the entire person that had been Palmyra Weston before that betrayal.For a while, it had consoled her to delude herself that her underlying motive in blatting out Terry's name was partly to punish Terry for having deserted her; breaking his promise.But that consolation hadn't lasted long. She had thought too many times through the years of too many.