I'm not ready either. I knew that as soon as I set eyes on Brenda again. I haven't worked through all the feelings she gave me from the last time." It...looks to me like you never intended to do what we both agreed you would do." I'll do what I said, when I can do it. I never had any firm timetable. You're the one in such a big hurry, not me. I can't just force myself to do something because that's what you want me to do. I want to put things back to the way they were, but not if I know it won't. She sported a pair of simple black flip-flops knowing the show was taking place in the bars pole barn that was used for winter volleyball leagues. Heels and sand would have been the perfect recipe for a broken ankle. Her makeup was simple, with black smokey eyes and bright glossy pink lips. Her hair was down, and the back part pulled up to show off the layers in the front. Two hours later she found herself nursing a beer and standing towards the back of the crowd, dancing in place and watching. Anyway, that Friday morning I had a message off Keith saying he was driving over about 11 and I was welcome to join him, I kept thinking about it but could not pick up the courage to say yes, we had not seen each other for over 5 years..Keith had told me where it was he walked and it got to 11 o'clock and i decided just to drive there and see if he had turned up, i got there around 11.20 and saw a car parked and knew it must be Keith's i had not a clue where he would be as i had not been here. ? Then why therestraints, why was she naked?? She triedto envision some explanation for these things that did not fill her with dread.? Finally her drug-hobbled mind admitted thather ordeal - whatever its nature - must be just beginning rather thanending.? She closed her eyes and criedquietly. After a time the tearsebbed.? Being unable to raise her head tosee herself the girl concentrated on reading the signals sent from the variousparts of her body.? She seemed at firstto be covered in pain,.