I staredinto the mirror. I could still recognize myself, lurking beneath it allthere was my face, but everything was just a little bit different, myno...e was smaller, my ears were smaller, my mouth and lips were bigger, myeyes also seemed to be a little bit bigger, although it could just bethat it seemed like my entire face and head were both smaller than theyhad been. Looking in the mirror, it was if someone had combined my oldface with the faces of Emma Stone, Scarlett Johansson, and. Myfrustration was growing each day so much so that I took to emailing theactual wholesale suppliers and even plant importers to see if anythinginteresting was available, but they all seemed to have the same oldstuff. Then one day after asking an importer, that I had come to knowwith my constant pestering and that I bought from previously, if he hadanything, anything at all that was really different on order. I receivedthe same reply, it made me give an exasperated expletive, I couldn'thelp. "Don't go with them, you can't trust them." It's all right," I said. "I don't want to upset them."He reluctantly let me go and I walked to the woman, who turned and led me down the corridor. I noticed the woman was wearing heels, whereas Theo and I had been barefoot. I hoped they kept my shoes. Those were my favourite pair of converse. I heard the door to the cell click shut behind me. The woman brought me into a room just down the hallway with counters lining the walls and a gynaecologists. I think she was crying more from the humiliation than from the pain. Sam let her up and she stood with her head down as she pulled up her drawers and adjusted her dress.Sam put his arm around her and said, "I love you, Ellen, but you are going to start acting like a lady."Ellen turned her head to him and sobbed into his chest.Later as we were snuggling in bed, I asked Millie and Lettie if they thought that had done any good."We'll see," Millie said. "I know I wouldn't want that happening to.