" I don’t know why I felt compelled to lie to Natalie like that. I just seemed appropriate. Natalie scoffed at my words, but she had a smile of appr...val on her face. "Of course you do. I'm hot. Don't you agree?" I quickly shook my head in compliance. "Yes, I do." "Then say it," Natalie added. "You're hot, Natalie," I replied with, as if she needed confirmation about that face. The woman stared at me expectantly. I figured I should say more. "I-I want to fuck you," I admitted. Natalie pursed her. It was a boldfaced lie, face-saving for both of them, with the impossibility of contradiction. She wondered if Raul knew. He might, but would never say so—and that's what mattered at the moment."I'm sorry, Señora Warner," Raul answered. "If you were not feeling well you could have called me and cancelled for this week."His answer alarmed her. She wasn't sure if it was the patronizing way he said it, or the ease in which he was willing to forego her. Either way, she could not let it stand, but. ”“If that leads through making love, my life is over,” I sighed.“No it is not. That’s the thinking that got you into trouble. But we’re going in circles now. You’ve made progress in learning the source of your problem. That’s the important thing for today.”There was a soft knock at the door and Anala called out for whoever it was to come in.“Katy and I made dinner,” Elyse said. “She said Steve was ill. Do you two want to eat?”Anala looked at me.“Yeah, I think so,” I said.We went down to dinner,. This weekend my Aunt and Uncle were visiting which meant that my parents were even more occupied than normal. My sister, who was the baby of the family, was asleep in her crib. This left me to find my own forms of amusement. Even at that young of an age, I had become quite accomplished at finding ways to amuse myself.On this particular weekend I was spending a warm summer day exploring all of the wonders and mysteries of our living room. There was always a certain wonder to watching the.