I was tempted to let that tidal wave carry me further along that path, but common sense kicked in and I pulled away. "Janet, how can I say this. You m...ke me feel good. Every time I look at you I start to get queasy inside. I know all about you but that somehow doesn't seem to matter. All that matters to me is how you make me feel." I knew how hard that was for him to say, and he meant it, every word of it. It was all over his face, especially in his eyes. I wanted to say something, but found. Arista felt compelled to walk to him to throw her arms around his waist to say just how sorry she was. She was in agony. She could not move even though every nerve in her body screamed otherwise. She closed her eyes to silence the war in her mind. This man was everything to her at one point and he still is standing with his back to her. He just did not know it. He could not have known how lonely she truly was without him. Arista was determined. She planned to end this madness they both created. "Eat, Liebchen."She replied in a tiny, quavering voice, but she didn't look up at him."No, bitte, I cannot. I will lose it again if I do, sir." Now that she was wide awake to the world, whenever she thought about putting anything in her mouth she saw the red-brown sauce spurting from that one man's penis, tasted it, and felt herself swallowing it. Even empty as she was, she had to control waves of nausea."For me, you will keep everything down sweetly, schöne Fraülein. I cannot have you growing. Hard limits are never to be used for punishment’s sake because “hard limit” means “I do not want to do this under any circumstance.” Using a hard limit as a punishment would be an abusive act, as hard limits come with an automatic safeword attached, since they are specifically stated as things the person does not feel comfortable with. Never, ever, threaten or use hard limits to punish a submissive.Use healthy discretion. This one should seem obvious, but don’t follow through with punishments.