Jan picked me up and we met Katie and Laurie at the bar for an afternoon of basketball and a few drinks. They all had their black & gold Iowa colors w...ile I donned a bright red sweatshirt in support of Wisconsin.The bar was kinda full for a Friday afternoon with about twenty or thirty people there to watch the Hawkeyes. I had to sit and watch everyone else cheer as Iowa won their game with late comeback. When Wisconsin played the following game, I think I was the only one in the place rooting. Mere sasur ji bahut he aayesh our hansome hain. Wo 50 ki umer mainbhi ek dam jawan lagate hain. Unko dekh ker ek bar to mera bhi maan huve ki shyad kuch ho lakin wo mere sasur hain yeh soch ker main rook gaye. Mere sasur thode din tak to thek rahe uske bad maine mehuesh kiya ki wo mujhe kuch aleg nazer se dekhte hain wo mujhe bahut gour se dekhate the. Jab kabhi bhi main aati jati to wo mere boobs ko our mere pave ko gour se dekhate hain. Aminshamaj gaye ki wo kya chahte hain. Lkin aminbhi bol. ..it can emitgreat pain. The normal day-to-day routine has been programmed into thisdisk so the brain will be steered into knowing the normal right fromwrong that goes along with this body. In more precise words, even thoughthe brain doesn't want to, the modifier will...uh...persuade the body toact and react in a 'normal' feminine way." But didn't this brain belong to a man? What about family or friends?Can you honestly believe you can control her reactions to them?" scoffedone doctor at. I had been married twice and divorced twice. Both of mywives left me for the same reason?a lack of passion in ourrelationships. But that shouldn't have surprised them, for I lacked abasic passion for life, because I thought the life I was living was alie. I thought I should have been born female.How I hated my male body. It wasn't handsome, but it wasn't particularlyugly either. It just seemed so big, so clunky, so...foreign to how Ifelt inside. I longed to be graceful, elegant, beautiful, to.