However, my mind has at length become more tranquil; the idea alone of the flagellation, of the pain to be inflicted, and of the humiliation, was enou...h formerly to cast me down, torment and trouble me; I now feel myself humiliated before God, but not at all before my fellow-creatures, for in my experience I have found too many of these to be beyond all expectation low, depraved and wicked. I stand up straight and firm, my eyes directed to Heaven. Yes! God has so conducted me through this. “Now Carol, think ‘body solid.’ I will help as little as necessary. Mr. X, please touch Carol.” This time his touch felt normal.“How much of that was your doing?” I asked.“About half. We need to practice the hard part. Keep your body solid, but make your arm as insubstantial as fog. Nod when you think you might have it.”It took 10 tries before it worked. Then I alternated solid and thin as air 10 times in a row. “Carol, please thank Mr. X and return us both.” I did what Filene asked.Back in The. ”“Well, that would be OK with us, we could peruse this beautiful city in the meantime. All right with you Olivia?” he asked.“Certainly, I only want to deal with this young man or his father. They understand waiting on the customer – the value of a customer! Stuart, what time should we be here?” Olivia said.“I could have him call you and come and get you, and show you the best four or five homes on the market – where are you staying?”“The Courtyard, on Oak Street, room 1105,” Olivia. My job got transferred." She answered.She poured us each a cup of coffee as we sat at her kitchen table. The last thing I really needed was more caffeine, but I was not going to say no. The box with the vibrator sat on the table like an elephant in the room. I thought hard trying to think of something cute to say that would lighten the situation. I wanted to bring the conversation around to the vibrator without being too direct. My mind was racing more than usual, if that is possible."So, how.