There wherepretty pink leotards, with soft grey tights. A soft white short sweaterand matching leggings where also laid out on the table. After measur...ngmy feet, the saleslady brought ballet slippers. Ruth then said, "Howabout some spandex underwear? She needs those, too." The salesladyapologized, and got the underwear, along with soft pink socks. I thentried the outfit. I felt ridicules, but went out. Ruth praised me,saying, "You really look girlish now. You are going to be such a. I'd already paid my property tax on my place for the year and had filed my income tax.Make no bones about it. It was cold. I bought a pay-as-you-go cell phone and a propane heater. I had a 9x9 canvas tent and a twenty pound propane tank. I had to buy power tools again. I liked that old Honda generator so I bought another. I got another circular saw and a power drill too. I needed water so I bought a manual pump head for my well. In the cold I'd have to prime it with hot water to get anything. Once we were inside, Judy put on some music and then sat on the couch with her legs tucked under her. I stood there with a dumb look on her face until she finally suggested that I have a seat and make myself more comfortable. I was trying not to stare, but her t-shirt and shorts weren't covering a lot. She smiled when I looked at her, and told me that she had noticed me watching her and asked if I liked what I saw. I must have turned beet red, as I stammered out that I thought she seemed. Just pervert. No connections. Just pervert. Could get him help, cure him. Psychobullshit. But, won’t give him satisfaction of Heaven one day. Rather he had Hell now. Grace not deserved by anyone who knows what its like to fuck a child. Old Man’s rules irrational. Pederast sees me. Doesn’t know what to think, I bet. Thinks “whatthefuckissat?”. Thinks “nother hobo?”. Draw finger across throat. Point at Pederast. Smile. Nod. Keep pointing. Nearly crashed car peeling out. Headed home. Time to cry..