Just didnt feel up to it," he said.She sent him a mental hug, knowing full well why he had been like that.It had been part of a pattern he fell into w...en memories came backstrongly, and he relived the torture both of them had been forced toendure.Back then, not bathing had been a pathetic attempt to make the Body less... appealing to their abuser, and so when the memories were fresh, he'dgo back into the habit again, as if he could ward them off with a whiffof body odor.He'd done much the same. It’s not the love but the lust in peoples eyes for me that turns me on.”Me,” So what next, look at that guy he will not even open his eyes tonight anymore. So what you have in your mind.”She grabbed my hand and took me outside the room. I was happy because we were leaving. But suddenly she knocked other room on the same floor. A black guy opened the door.There were two foreigners one white and a black. White guy was a good looking young man with average built. But the black man was massively. .. a real swinger!"Her grin turned into a wry smile as she added, "If he only knew the truth! Bob, I might as well be honest: Last night was the second time in my entire life I've been to bed with a man. Now I regret the first time. It's not that I minded losing my virginity, but the experience was horrid. Since last night was only the second time, I wonder what I would be like if I were still a virgin. I suspect I wouldn't be involved in some of the groups I've become involved with."Bob, after. I enjoy working out at the gym and Kate says I have a good gymnastic build. Not muscular but toned all over. I am only 5'6” and weigh 125 pounds. Since this is going to be fictional my sex life with my wife Kate is not important. Well Kate and I may write about our sex life some day with our friend Mike but not in this fictional story. Both my parents were born in England and came to the U.S.A. after they were married. I was born in the States. Oh yes I am white. By the way even in real.