I ate too much, so, Alisha and I went outside and took a walk down to the barn and corals. When we got back to the house, we went out to the vehicles...to get our suitcases. Alisha took me to the guest bedroom, kissed me, then went on to her room. It’s going to be a lonely night, I thought to myself. I know her parents wouldn’t approve of us sleeping together, so I’ll just make the most of it……I need the rest anyway. It’s been a long day and I’m really looking forward to a good night’s. I took us around some islands and around the lake. She just sat next to me with her head on my shoulder. I would give her a little kiss every now and then on her forehead just to show her how much I enjoyed what she had done for me. Once we had been all around the lake I started back for our cove.As we headed back Tammy got up and sat down on my lap. She took my hands off the wheel and placed them around her stomach. Everything just felt so good with her. But things weren’t quite over. She. I'd started having dreams of the owner coming home and revealing a nanny-cam in the living room and catching the whole thing on tape. He was turning me in. It was all over. When I woke up I couldn't shake the dream. While I showered I had visions of my story going out over the local news. My mother's shame. My grandmother's horror. At odd moments I groaned audibly. This was the kind of shit you couldn't even take to a therapist. I felt so filthy, so awful. And yet still I had to walk Monty. 2 months had passed and I was now a regular with quite a few people recognizing me. I had also a couple of guys seem interested in me the way they would look which would please me. The librarian was also a sweet middle aged fellow who I thought went out of his way to help me. One day when I could not find a particular title he volunteered to help. I followed him to the shelf where he thought the book could be found. The author I was looking was not to be found but he came up with a couple of.