Most of them aren't willing to stay late the nights I am still working in the fields or they want a guaranteed full time job. Why? Did you finally fin... work?" Well sort of. I got hired at Wal-Mart for the Christmas season. They said I might get to stay on full time after if things work out. I'm supposed to start next week. Sorry."Between Tammy, the old woman in town and a couple of friend's wives I managed to take care of my child care needs through the holidays and until early March. I was. "That's a welcome I'm happy to offer you any time," I breathed back. I kissed her again, a quicker, more traditional welcoming kiss and leaned back to separate us a little. "Can I take that sweater for you?" Oh yes, thank you. I'll get our Mojita fixings going while you do that," she moved around me to grab the bag, brushing against me and my abused personal space again. I smiled and rushed back to the entryway to put the sweater in the entry closet. I looked at the hangers in the closet and. He makes me too nervous and everytime I open my mouth...I just feel like saying :"take me here and now"...so instead I keep it well shut, just in case. So we have finally stopped. He helps me out of the car and guides me into Holt Renfrew. My eyes run around like crazy... there are so many beautiful dresses. He looks at me and at once leads me in a rush, grabs a gorgeous peach dress and purchases it at once. I keep looking at him in shock...oh my god that dress just cost him 25 000$. That is. Later that day, I decided to have a bonfire. The fire would consist of everything Judith left behind and keepsakes reminding me of her. I would purge my memories of her while the fire consumed the physical remindersTodd and Dean (Jenny's husband) helped me gather everything up and put it on the fire. Jenny took pictures as we worked, and of the huge fire afterword. I admit I did get a little carried away. I burnt everything including the furniture from our bedroom. I even went so far as to burn.