” I started crying. He was going to find out. I was so ashamed. Kyle put his arm around me but he’d hate me, too. There was nothing to do but get ...t over with. “I killed three men, Pa.”I was wailing. Moms were closing in on us hugging from both sides. Pa was on his knees in front of me holding my hands.“It’s okay, baby girl. It’s not you. It’s not you.” Kyle squeezed me so hard I thought he’d break my shoulders. “I remember the first time my host killed a man while I was in his body. I. I crawled up on the bed next to her intentionally to wake her but not deliberately doing so. She stirred “Hollis” she said turning her head to look at me. “Sorry, but Stephanie ( another little sister) wet my bed when she slept there last night and Mom hasn’t washed my sheets yet so I hope this is ok, I just needed a nap” she said groggily. “Uh yea sure, that’s alright Cat” I said and she smiled leaning up to kiss me before lying back down. It was only a peck but with the state I was in it. Out.”I must have looked truly frightful, because Fergus examined me for one, brief moment, and then left without another word. I thought I’d want to cry, or at least feel a little guilty, but I didn’t. I wasn’t even angry. All I felt was numb. I put him out of my mind and turned my attention back to where it belonged – Alistair.After a few minutes of silence, Avanna poked her head through the door, clearing her throat to get my attention. I met her gaze, embarrassed by her obvious sympathy. I. The back door led directly into the kitchen. She was not there nor in the living room or dinning room. I wasnt about to go up stairs until she called out. Jeff. Im upstairs you can come up. Still breathing hard and in the back of my mind thinking I needed a self propelled lawn mower I mounted the stairs and came to her door. Was I nave? No. I reasoned shed be still in her bikini though and even as I moaned my thoughts occasionally drifted to her form. I was after all a fifteen year old.