For 5 years, I failed. We each went to college, graduated and had moved back to our hometown in California looking for work. Throughout those 5 years... whenever I went through a dry spell, I would use that memory to masturbate. I convinced myself I was simply bi-curious. I never felt an urge for another guy, never did anything with guys and enjoyed a fair amount of sex with girls in college. But for some reason, my ultimate fantasy, one I never thought possible, was to be with Dan. Ironically,. ” “Why didn't you tell me?” “You haven't been in the mood to talk much lately. “ “What is that supposed to mean?” “Well, you never come to bed with me anymore. You always wait until I'm in bed then go have a shower. I'm usually asleep by the time you get in or near enough to it.” “Geoff we've had the same routine for years. You normally talk to me when I get in bed but lately, you have just been rolling over without saying anything. I assumed you were tired.” We both seemed nervous as we were. ”“I have some shopping I want to do, and your youngest are home for Marta to play with. You have a new nanny, right?”“Yes. Amanda. And I told you about our houseguest.”“The handsome British doctor?” Pia laughed. “Too bad I’m taken!”I chuckled, “He’s going to be VERY disappointed. He has the same kind of freedoms I do.”“Of course he does!” Pia laughed.“«Mama, får jag sova hos Jesse?»” Marta asked. (“Mom, may I sleep at Jesse’s?”)“What do you think, Steve?” Pia asked.“I think that’s up to you,. My job was to be a wrangler for them, keep the horses they would ride, and go with them whenever needed, especially if they had kids.I'd always hunted with my dad and my uncle wanted me to help out on that also. Sometimes he would go and other times I'd take them by myself. Most of this was in the fall—I didn't have classes on Fridays, so I could always be available on weekends; I'd drive home in the two-year-old F-150 that Gene had given me to use. Mostly we hunted on the property, but.