Dan was leading the group. I explained to him what happened and hesaid I should not worry. In fact, during the time I was telling my storythe other mo...ks had already get rid of the corpse and cleaned the blood.Dan was mostly interested in the solar energy, so I had to remind him,angry, of my mission. He gave orders to the other monks to investigatethe house and we resumed talking (about the energy). When the monksreturned, they gave him some reports in private and then he confirmed tome that. I’ve ruined everything. Our friendship was over. I wish I hadn’t kissed him now but I’d done it and there was fuck all I could do about it. I managed to look at him. “I’m sorry, mate. I shouldn’t have done that.” He wasn’t saying nothing. I’m thinking: say something. Anything. Tell me that you don’t want to see me ever again and tell me to fuck off. Just say something. Then I thought: pretend it was just a joke. Yeah. Coz I didn’t wanna lose him as a friend. I couldn’t cope losing him. Life. This must be the neighbor's daughter, he thought distractedly. He hadn't yet seen her face, and he hoped that she would afford him a glimpse before she went inside.He watched as she spread her towel out on the patio and lowered herself down on it. Still facing away from him, she reached around and began to unzip her swimsuit. He stared in open-mouthed fascination as she slid out of her wet suit and lay down on the towel, completely naked. He strained to get a better view, but the most he could. I managed to stand up and walk slowly to across to the chair. Ipicked up what turned out to be a bright sky blue short ie nightdress. Itwas made some sort of pleated material with a blue satin bow across thefront, tied eneath soft lace bra cups and very thin straps. The labelsaid Victoria's Secret and even to my eyes it looked impossibly feminine.I had passed the point of caring, so, almost robotically I slipped itover my head and put my arms through the straps. It floated down just tothe.