Saturday night seemed muchbetter; you erupted like a volcano. What did we do differently then?Tell me how I might please you the way you please me."No... I am not incredibly dense. I wanted Alan to admit it to me - andhimself. He was silent for long moments, presumably trying to formulatean answer that wouldn't offend me. "Baby?" I prompted. "Baby? It's okay, really; you can say whatever youwant to say. I promise I won't take it the wrong way. I love you,without reservation. We have already. I know it was a hassle for you and I appreciate it. Thank you."The flight attendant served her a Bloody Mary before we left the ramp. We left San Francisco and reached cruising altitude. Something told me that she was troubled.I took her hand and she did not jerk it away. "You are troubled?" Yes, I am troubled. I must redefine my life. I have to grow up and quit playing that game." Then, she shook her head and said, "Why am I telling you this. You don't care." I do care. You may tell me if you. A good portion of the men and women below had never fired a weapon and it was clear that barring a small miracle, a good percentage of those that hadn't, never would. However, at least in the case of the women, there was a certain bloodlust in their eyes. Meredith took all this in as she gave rudimentary directions to the former captives. Volunteers were going into the woods to hit the remaining members of the Militia from the rear. Meredith soon found that she had a formidable force on her. She admitted openly to me that she missed the regular sex a lot and I must be lonely as well as I worked such long hours. I admitted it was difficult not seeing my wife or k**s often and even when we did either one or both of us were far too tired to fuck, not in that word exactly. It was on,y after I,d been there six months that she started openl,y flirting with me. One evening as I started my patrol at 8:20 I expected to see her coming out if the ladies or switchboard room as she seemed to be.