The only real marker of reality, the last vestige of the mind’s connection to the body of the creature, now almost abjectly object, animal, property...is in her movement. There is no part of my body that is not physically, palpably hurting, aching dully or stinging with pain without reprieve. The endorphins have long worn off – a frustrating paradox. What is now pain that I want direly to escape was precisely what was integral in bringing about the incredible rush that I had craved all my life in. Fixtures purchased and installed ran just over a thousand dollars. Everything was chosen to stay in keeping with the age of the building.In the end I had something like $30,000 in the place. It would have taken all I could scrape together to pay cash for it. So I paid for the building and the back taxes for cash up front, then I used it as collateral for the $14,000 renovation cost.My payments on the 10year mortgage were just under $200 a month. They were affordable, but were also going to be. Your body is mostly bare. You feel a tightness around your chest and look to see what you are wearing. You gingerly brush your hands across your chest and feel the smoothness of its fabric with your fingers. It appears you are in some sort of black, latex-y sports bra, and your bottom is covered by matching pair of black, latex boy shorts. Upon your feet, you stand comfortably in a pair of black ballet-flats, all of which, you're relieved is more or less comfortable, and wont restrict your. "You should have destroyed her. She certainly would have destroyed you," Zoraster criticized. He then spoke words of magic and gestured. The disgusting mess that remained of Camilla vanished. A few more words and gestures doused the fires burning in the room.Danica rose from where she had fallen to her knees fighting nausea, glancing for a moment at the spot where Camilla had died with a shiver."You have leave to defend yourself in whatever manner necessary. Your powers grow, and some within.