But there was nothing I could do about it now. I couldn't go back to the way things had been, and I was too frightened to take a step forward."C'mon, ...essie! Don't be such a scaredy cat!"I was standing high up on the bank of the Arkansas River, not a week and a half earlier, while my dad stood in the water down below. I was holding a rope that would allow me to swing out into the water. Dad was smiling up at me, as I stood on the bank and grinned nervously, my knees shaking and hands. She was beyond tired, and the lift doors were an indistinct blur. Her tongue cleaved to the roof of her mouth, for she had refused even water. Eating was out of the question; her stomach was a knot of iron bars, and she had vomited when Kayla had forced her to eat something. She concentrated on the doors, and they swam into focus. Aaron moved forward, and Luisa somehow managed to put one foot in front of the other.She hated Aaron with every fiber of her being. Her emotions seethed as he led. Either she didn’t notice or she didn’t mind it. Either way, I was enjoying this foreplay with her. She has done a hair bum to her hairs and I let her hairs lose. I told her that she looks pretty in loose hairs. She smiled and continued to dance. Whenever the singers sing a line about a beautiful woman or sexy woman, I pointed my finger to her saying that it was her they were singing about.She said that I have been smitten by her and I didn’t deny it to her. She laughed loudly and danced close. I am smooth bodied and small of stature. I am a Freshman and was still eighteen years old, rather naive and shy. Let me make this perfectly clear to you, I was and am still straight. Although I must admit, I hardly know what that means anymore. I made a simple mistake. A really simple mistake and it ruined my life forever. Let this be a lesson to all of you guys out there. Don't cross college jocks! I know geeks and 'sensitive boys' may be popular nowadays, but let me tell you, jocks still.