It might be a long time before I had another opportunity like this. But it was all so sudden; having sex with anyone, to say nothing of Ellen herself,...hadn't been in my mind at all, until only a few minutes ago. But then. . .What the hell am I thinking, I chided myself. She wants to have sex with me! She's been fantasizing about me! She's sitting here in front of me half a millimeter from naked! How thick do I need to be?I smiled and looked into Ellen's eyes. "Sure," I said. "I'm game if you. I blinked at her. Then I walk to her desk and say “Don’t worry, it’s not yours. But if you do not agree by lunch, next would be your video going public”. Keerthi’s face went pale and tensed.Keerthi: “If I tell big boss he will throw you out of the company”Me: “I am sure you don’t want to be on bed with an old man; and that too an sex hungry old man. If you tell him, he will say you sleep with me and I will take care of him. You need to decide if you want a 60 year old or 36 year old?”I walk. She ran some kind of program daily. Then I was surprised again when she told us that she was negotiating with another utility to take over their leasing package. This utility was a big one, compared to the other two we had under contract.Southern Power and Gas had 4000 vehicles; a mix of everything. There were trucks, trailers trenchers, excavators, bulldozers, cranes, hybrid cars and trucks, boring and pipe pushing equipment and the list just went on. It was spread over four states.Their turn. I worried she would decide it meant it was time to use those hypnosistools I'd heard and read about... or worse, send me off to anetiquette school for the conditioning I now knew way too much aboutfrom my research.Part of me knew that I needed to engage with her in a positive way andnot shut her out... but my own depression over the situation where Ihad suddenly found myself wouldn't let me. Before I knew it, thefourteen weeks of Ivy's extended maternity leave with me had flown by,and it was.