I knows he gunna be betta, I’s can feel it in ma bones. Sometimes, when I look at Adam, my eyes fill up wit tears and my heart feel like it wanna �...�splode like a fire cracker. I loves him more dan anythin’ in de whole world. I knows with e’ry bit o’ my soul dat Adam loves me with e’ry bit o’ his soul too. Massa say niggers ain’t got no souls. He say only white folks got souls but he crazier dan a loon. Even I know a soul is what makes you ‘live, a soul be da thing dat makes you sing ‘n. The entire bar area was in shambles. Shattered remnants of chairs, stools and tables lay willy nilly throughout the room. The entire floor was heavily coated in a layer of thickly congealed blood and it appeared that more had been sprayed, as if from a hose, over several places on the walls. Four bodies were scattered around the room while another had been nailed to the bar with a variety of switchblades and buck knives, its head fixed in place so that it seemed to stare toward the door. This. I shouldn’t have been, we were in the same year after all, but I was. That’s The Great Divide for you.She looked up at me and appeared to steel herself, taking a short breath before she said, “I never got to thank you.”“Thank me?”“For what you did at the wedding.”“Oh. That’s okay. I was just—”“You weren’t just anything.” Her eyes went wide as she interrupted me. “It took a lot of guts to stand up to Jake like that.”I shrugged. Maybe it did, but he backed off a lot easier than I expected. Maybe. I couldn't defend myself very well either. I'm short, slimly built, effeminate looking, and even considered to be pretty for a boy, partially due to my shoulder-length, red hair and cushy, girly ass. I have thick, soft lips too. The teasing and bullying got even worse in middle school and high school, and I became a loner who didn’t participate in sports or other school activities. The only real friend I had was my older brother. He's four years older than me, though, and we didn’t hang out.