The affair lasted for quite a while, about a year, until I wanted more. I started talking about getting a divorce and being with her, and that was the...end of it. She was not going to do that to her family, and looking back, I might not have been able to do it either. But in the heat of it, all I could see was the fantasy - how we would live happily ever after, and just shut out the reality of the damage we would have been causing. Still... the sex was incredible. Affairs are so arousing. The. Exerting some more of his dwindling energy, he managed to enfold her in his arms, with the weight of her body pressing on him to a degree that he wasn’t used to, but relished as memories of happier times seeped into his brain. She held him to her lips for an indeterminate length of time, savouring his taste, and wanting desperately to give him something that he seemed to have forgotten how to recognize any more.It had been a long time since Rod Shore had been this close to another human being,. That is why we moved away. She still stays in touchwith me but forbade me from telling you. She is still on your sideRachel and she loves you very much. When you feel up to it I think itwould be a wonderful thing to go and visit her. What do you think aboutthat?"MY GOD! I was the one who caused so much distress and grief! Not mebeing exposed as a boy but my reaction to that exposure! My reaction! Iremembered then an important teaching I had not understood until thisvery moment. God's greatest. Uske baad me nanda ki aavae aayi ohi… Oho….. Aaaahaaa… Bahut accha lag raha hai muze baldev aur jor se chodo muze.. Bahut bada lund hai tumhara. Nanda boli are dhire ce bolo varna pushpa jag jayengi . Baldev bola aane do na use bhi …….. Mai use bhi chod dalunga. Ek na ek din use bhi chodna hi hai na.Ye sunkar pushpa ekdam garam ho gayi. Aaj ke pahale pushpa ne apne bare me kisi se is taraha aisi baat nahi suni thi. O sidhe ghar me chali gayi aur sone lagi . Magar pushpa ko neend nahi aa rahi.