I love all my pretty new things and being pretty and popular. I didn't mind the time it took. And time it did take! I had made new friends. I didn'... want to be a boy any more. We both acknowledged that by whatever means, we were stuck. We'd just have to play this out to it's logical conclusion. No matter what we thought on an intellectual level, we both knew that we loved what we were becoming and didn't want to stop now, COULDN'T stop now even if we really wanted to, which, I don't. So I got in and look around, no one was home. Then I hear a noise, it was the shower, so I go upstairs to find out who it is. When I got up I found out that the door was open and I thought what is a peek going to do, so I peeked , and holy shit!!!!!! It was my cousin, who is 18. I just stare and stare, then she turned around and found me standing there, she suddenly covered herself with the shower curtain, I walk in and lock the door behind me, take of my clothes, and stand there. Neither one. " I know, and I promise not to do it very often in the future. No, what I was thinking was how people are consciously making Claiborne like other schools, socially speaking of course, despite the programming." Oh? How so?" We're pairing up, just like at other schools. We hold hands, we eat lunch together, and we hang out together." The only difference is what we do when we're not together." Well, yeah, there is that, but that's the programming. Other than that, though, we're typical high school. .. I was lucky enough to live only 25 miles from the gay capitol of Britain and working near by as well gave me lots of opportunities to check out the scene and to see what's happening in the bars, clubs, beaches, toilets, and alleyways without being on the scene myself, I sometimes drove my car there on week nights and take a nice walk along the coastal paths and sit myself on the beach near the two piers, I would just sit there and watch all the gay activity going on under the pier, I worked.