I've always been 'big boned' wearing plus size clothes and most of all have always thought of myself being a very feminine male. That aspect has alway... been the easiest for me to accept, yet, kept me vulnerable for the lifelong branding of me as 'a very fem fag' as some use to say. That being said I knew that by winding my way through the channels and by-ways of my mind I would eventually be able to see how I really looked once the meeting took place. Not too long into the journey after. Little did I know, later that day she was going to show exactly how much she owns me!After half an hour of watching my sleeping beauty, she began to wake, smiling at me as she opened her heavy eyes and kissing me 'good morning'.We spent the next hour or so doing as we normally do every Saturday morning, just laying there talking softly to eachother about anything, usually about what we have planned for the day ahead and also what we'd like to do, that's when I found out from her about her plans. Over the past three years I had allowed my belly to grow and now I hadexercised and lost that flab. We got to spend sometime together each dayand the weekends but each week I wondered if there could be somethingnew. The triathlon seemed like a good focus for me but she seemeddistance as she stopped talking of the race five week ahead.There was more to our marriage then sex but we made love less frequentlysince I had begun to run in earnest. I loved Sam deeply and had thoughtof her paused. Every movement now seemed to have unlimited money to pay protesters and they were not shy about it, by openly advertising on Craigslist, Face Time and local media. The average citizen no longer had real access to influence politicians.Protesters paid by big money, special interest groups and favorites of the media carried all the influence that affected most politicians.Terrorists, death threats and actual attempts on my life limited my access to the average citizen. The closest they could get.