It was a cool autumn evening and he decided he needed to look like an adult. Not that he was going to give up his collection of concert, sci-fi, sport... and car tee-shirts. But those were for around the house. He has decided on going with some newer blue jeans with the hopes of not looking like he was trying too hard and a nice dark blue shirt topped with a tweed sports coat. He always tried to wear blue when she was around. She had mentioned on more than one occasion how she like how it brought. So jasie hi didi uth ke nighty pehane lagi main apne room ki taraf bhaga aur bistar pe let gaya aur sone ka bahana karne laga.mere face door ki taraf hi thaaur main zara sa aankh khole hua tha.laghbag 5min ke baad sanchita didi darwaje se jhaki aur kuch der mujhe dekhti rahi main bhi gehri neend mein honeka natak karta raha kuch der mujhe watch kane ke baad didi darwaje se hat gaye shayad use yakin ho gaya ki main gehri neend soya hu.uske jaane ke 10minbaad main chupke se utha aur room se bahar. Instead of wallowing in sadness over a woman I barely know, I’m going to get some much-needed sleep and then get back to what matters—my career.Whatever Zen I found in the shower immediately dissipates as I look down at my phone on the bathroom counter. Lauren’s name is on the screen. I saved it into my phone this morning after she left for the office, but even if I hadn’t, I only know one number from Austin.I stare down at the device before picking it up and reading the text.Lauren: Boarding. All of the pressures of societycame rushing at me. Does this mean I am gay? Am I going to hell? Will Ibecome known as a queer? All the things that didn't matter just a fewminutes ago now seemed like major life decisions.I made an awkward lie and told her that I had to go. I got dressed andleft. I had trouble sleeping that night with so many thoughts goingthrough my head. Would I die of shame? Am I gay? What is wrong with me?I finally fell asleep and slept in late on Sunday. My.