"That is exactly what I have to live with now, Tim. My life is so muchmore difficult than it needs to be because most of the people around medon't und...rstand and because they don't understand they think I shouldgo away or live a life less troubling to them." I'm sorry." And I was, frowning with regret."You don't have to be sorry, I should be sorry for causing all theturmoil written into your face. I seem to spend a lot of my timethinking I should apologise to the people around me, to the people. ’ I nodded and sat in the sun on the beach with my beautiful, beautiful daughter. ‘Dad, I…’ she stalled and I saw a look, not of fear exactly but something akin to it. ‘Holly, baby, what is it, you can tell me, please I’ll help if I can you know that?’ ‘Dad, I think I’m pregnant,’ she gripped my hand tightly. ‘Baby, that’s wonderful, does Naomi know, what about Bob?’ ‘I… you’re the first person I’ve told.’ ‘Wow, I’m honoured and astounded, I mean you and Bob, you and your Mum, you’re so close,. Mujhe samajh to aa raha tha ki woh khujla rahi hai par dikh kuch nahi raha tha. Dil ki dharkan bad rahi thi ki kash main yeh kaam kar sakta uske liye. Phir woh wahin garden ke pass baith gai aur mutne lagi.Woh jab mutne ke liye baithi to usne saare upar ki to peeche se mujhe uski kali badi si gaand bhi dikhai di. Mera dimag bhanna gaya aur land ekdum khada ho gaya. Khair itne main hi meri biwi ne awaz lagai aur mujhe us nazare ko chod ke jana pada. Par maine ab decide kar liya tha ki is mast. For the next several years nothing changed. Sam fucked Debbie: Sam fucked Connie, and I in my total and absolute ignorance of what was happening, read the Someone's Watching section of Penthouse Letters and masturbated to visions of Connie fucking other men. Did I ever ask her if she would? Of course not! She'd have slapped me silly, left me and filed for divorce, or so I thought. Anyway, the Sam, Debbie, Connie thing got so brazen that whenever Debbie was having her period and Sam was horny.