I decided to pay a quick visit to some friends before having some lunch at Balans. After lunch I called into the Golden Lion for a quick drink before ...eading back to the hotel. Even in the afternoon the place was busy, as it always was, filled with low end rent boys who worked from there and the businessmen who frequented it. I got back to the hotel around four and started the painstaking ritual of preparing myself for the possibility of anal sex. Three anal douches and a couple of showers,. Drove to the Plaza; he made a north-to-south U-turn on Jefferson and stopped at the valet sign in front of the restaurant.They went inside and were seated right away. Just the two of them. I made a note to check out their two grown children, a young man and a younger woman. But that was mainly to give myself the illusion that I was doing something. Unlikely that sixteen sets of children, some of them toddlers, would simultaneously steal from their parents.But I’d check the Robinson kids out. ." I wanted to stay all night with you, but you knew that when I went home." He turned and grabbed me by the arm almost hurting me and pulled me toward the sofa in their den. "God damn it you little bitch you set down keep your fucking mouth shut and listen... I'll do the talking!" He began to walk up and down the room and around it telling me what we/he had done last night was wrong, it was unlawful to say the least, it was stupid, and he was crazy to have done that. He was right. .. and sigh, and for the first time, ask my muse directly for help... "Why? Why can't I find the words to express myself? I feel the emotions, I mean... it's there... but it's not. It's been almost four months since... since Tabitha and I split up... and in that time, it's like I'm a faucet that's been shut off at the source. No matter how many times I turn the handle, there's nothing coming out."She avoids looking at me directly. She knows how much this hurts me... still... For weeks after our.