She told me that Tammy Joe loved me just as much. It took an extraordinary type of woman to go to the trouble that Tammy Joe did for me to try to make...me happy. I nodded my head in agreement but wished that Tammy Joe could see that she was all I wanted. And that was how we spent the second time that Laura came over.The third time that I saw Laura changed things. Tammy Joe told me that we were having a barbecue when I got home from work that evening. It would be us and two other couples. The. But maybe she really didn’t. “What are you talking about? You’re beautiful. You know that.” His hand rubbed her hip, but now it was for comfort. Reassurance. Beautiful. Ha. Her hair was going gray. Wrinkles were appearing on her face even though she used that alpha-hydroxy lotion every night. There was more fat on her frame than there was before. She didn’t turn heads like she used to. How could he say she was beautiful? How could he think she was beautiful? He was lying. He had to be.. " What advice was that?" To think through what was important to me, what I really needed and wanted." And what do you want from me Lynn?" I want to love you and be loved by you." That you have already." I want us to go away together somewhere far away where we can make a new life together." Yes, we can do that." I want you to be strong for me. I want you to take me, even savagely and ruthlessly sometimes. I want you to rape me, to defile me, to make me beg. I want each night to be an erotic. The feel of your fingers on mine makes me gasp; you look at me in confusion. I tell you“It’s okay, your hands, they are like fire”You smile “All the better to warm you up with my dear” I turn my head to the side again in embarrassment. But your eyes beckon me back. My bra is loosened now, and so is your mental block. You want me and I want you and we both know it. With a single swipe you brush my bra off, teasing me your fingers trace the outlines of my perfect breasts. I want you to lick me,.